Alright – sure.. I’m a little bit of a hypochondriac. My personal history is littered with evidence.
Like back in my mid-20’s…. when I made an emergency appointment with my doc, completely convinced I had mouth cancer, – only to be informed by her, (while fighting back giggling) – that the bumps on the back of my tongue were taste-buds… granted – they were excited, but most likely from a spicy meal.
Alright – so about a week into not smoking, my right eye has started twitching. That minute type of twitching – like a micro-spasm that you can barely tell by looking at me… but being the spaz-e, it’s quite obvious.
The worse thing I could do of course is try to research this myself… Now I’m convinced I have “Benign Essential Blepharospasm”.
I remember years ago when I tried quitting before, I tried a Welbutrin-type, (zyban?) drug which also made this happen. I didn’t even get around to quitting part of the program… I took the pills for three days and the eye twitching made me freak out and stop taking them.
Is this some sort of neurological self-correction or a physiological manifestation of some kind of subconscious withdrawal symptom?
I won’t have health insurance again till March, (hopefully)…. So I guess I’ll just try to find a pattern for this and make notes…
and not blog.